emotionally depressed

i safely delivered SOFEA MYSARA[3.55kg] @ 3.55am on 27/2/2010. me and hubby went to KPJ Selangor Specialist around 11.++pm, informed by midwife that i've dilated almost 5cm!! haha sendiri terkejut sbb no major signs of labour detected, cuma sakit kat pelvic tu since 3rd trimester nih..

so dr pkul 12am mcm tu smpai pkul 4.30am, we [me n ridz] were in the labour room.. waiting patiently for this lil' precious keluar.. alhamdulilah, no epidural only GAS(ENTONOX)taken to relieve my labour pain.. [sakit tetap sakit u'olls; bersalin maa].. but seriously, kali ni mcm rasa putus asa nak bersalin normal sbb x daya nak push.. alhamdulilah, lepas 3 kali [dgn midwife nye support, gynae, ridz kat sebelah lg] berjaya jugak keluar bby ni.. LEGAAAAAAAA

well, i'm not emotionally depressed due to the above story, i juz feel i can't cope with all the 'things' after delivery nih.. as ridz is not around, doing the DPA thingy [nasib bleh calling2, kurang la sket stress tu], aisya yg sedang membesar dgn sgt lasaknye - sesaat tak diam, smpai semua org penat layan die, dgn pantang lagi.. nasibla mama & ayah ada at shah alam jugak, kalau tak, mau terjebak dgn POST NATAL DEPRESSION! huhu

tp jujurnya, i really2 need my husband rite now.. kesian kat parents sbb kena tlg uruskan kami anak beranak.. diorang pun bukan larat sgt..

pantang kali ni, x brapa manja mcm masa lahirkan AISYA - masa tu semua benda ade je org tlg buat, amik itu, amik ini, etc,etc...

urmm nnt la smbung entry ni, nak BF sofea.. daaa!!!