Tuesday, March 23

language acquisition


Aisya dah nak pandai ckp, i mean dah mula keluarkan perkataan yg ada maksud.. e.g 'kakak', 'bi'[bibik], 'nene'[nenek], 'tade'[tidak], 'ho'[hot]... hari ni dgn berjayanye die sebut 'HOT'.. ceritanye camni, masa mama sibuk nak mandikan Sofea td, mcm biasa ade air panas letak dalam besen mandi tu, Aisya dgn sgt pantas celup tangan die, trus tarik kuar balik, tgk muka mama pastu jeritt HHOTTT!!! brilliant luv!!

Tuesday, March 16

a visit to paediatrician

main purpose pi specialist ni sbb mama was instructed by the doctor [DEMC] due to sofea nye fever tak surut2 since last sunday.. plus, ade rashes naik kat area mulut, bdn sket n paling bynk kat kaki.. DEMC prescribed paracetamol n calamine lotion utk Sofea..

jd hari ni, mama bwk [nenek hantarkan] 2 princesses ni ke Pakar Kanak2 Adek [section 9, shah alam].. utk Aisya, request utk 15 months punye jab [since tak pi pun ngan papa last weekend kan ;[ ], whereas Sofea, utk buat thorough checkup due to this rashes symptom n fever..

langkah masuk to the paed's room, huhu sgtla comfy, sgtla bby friendly.. tak mcm all those clinics yg ade meja doctor, pastu kerusi, n katil utk treat patients.. yg ni, bilik cam living room, ade sofa set n meja [atas meja penuh ngan toys], of course ade gak patients' bed yg dikelilingi mcm2 jenis anak patung! paed ade kerusi sendiri n study table sendiri.. secara psychology, budak2 cam aisya ni takde la takut sgt bila such environment applied kan?

Aisya check dulu - tempreture ok, lung ok, tp bile paed tgk kulit kat tangan, kaki, belakang badan, trus dia refused nak kasik 15 months jab tu.. mama kena marah sket arr sbb biar aisya nye eczema melarat cenggitu.. [bukan tak pernah sapu ubat, dah mcm krim tukar, semuanye kejap2 je efeknye, smpai fed-up]. paed ckp we need to cure this eczema first, so that Aisya can sleep well every nite without garu2 n nangis2.. dah ok nnt, then we need to come back for the jab.. what izit to do with jab n eczema nih? some doses ade telur, takut Aisya allergic plak..

Sofea's turn. paed ckp bila rashes dah keluar bnyk mcm ni, by rite, fever die akan kurang.. @ the moment, paed suspect ni viral symptom.. acc to him, Sofea masih active, lung ok, minum susu pun ok, kencing berak pun ok.. tp we were advised to do a follow up session on coming thursday, if demam masih ade.. kalau ade, maksudnye, Sofea perlu diambil darahnye.. ADOYAII, ni yg tak gemar sesgt nih!! moga2 baikla lil Sofea nih..

AISYA weighs 10.5kg SOFEA 4kg

Bill for both kids RM144 [erkk!@#$], nasib la mama puas hati ngan consultation paed tu.. takpela AISYA SOFEA, mama keje pun utk kamu berdua jugak.. sayang mama, muchup2!!

Monday, March 15

quote of the day

a leader is a dealer of hope
napolean bonaparte

Saturday, March 13

if i could...

there was a session with Dr. Abu Bakar Sarpon an INTAN lecturer,

i was attracted to one of the slides:-

Menjadi suluh dalam gelita
Menjadi penawar penolak bisa
Menjadi penenang dalam duka
Menjadi penyejuk dalam derita
Menjadi penyabar dalam murka
(Tenas Effandy 2000)

sure sejuk hati isteri if i can be a husband with such quality,

let's try.

Friday, March 12

2.15 a.m.

not asleep yet, thinking of wife sayang, cheeky aisya, and lovely sofea.

11 days into the course i think i'm on the verge of insanity, 28 weeks to go, i hope my will is strong.

my day starts at 6.00 in the morning and ends around 2.30 in the morning, this is my life. but i know rynn is struggling and toughing it through daily, during this confinement period, i can only imagine what its like. here i just need to make sure i survive through each day, while wifey has to think of aisya and sofea, and i know sometimes u ignore your own needs sayang.

i feel guilty, everyday, each time i think of you and the girls.

i couldn't hope for anyone as understanding as you are, nor will i ever find someone who loves me as much.

i just want you to know that you are my beacon of hope, the light at the end of the tunnel for me, without you i'm lost.

Monday, March 8

away from home

this would be the 8th day i'm away from my wife, two girls and home.

i'm both sad and guilty not being around when you need me most sayang. if i had a magic wand to change how things are, i would. 29 more weeks to go and i sometimes wonder how longer i'll last not being with you.

the air is less sweet, the sun less rosier, everything is just not rite, being away from you.

i miss every inch of you, your smile, scent, your presence. I miss you!


ill write soon,
XOXO

Friday, March 5

emotionally depressed


i safely delivered SOFEA MYSARA[3.55kg] @ 3.55am on 27/2/2010. me and hubby went to KPJ Selangor Specialist around 11.++pm, informed by midwife that i've dilated almost 5cm!! haha sendiri terkejut sbb no major signs of labour detected, cuma sakit kat pelvic tu since 3rd trimester nih..

so dr pkul 12am mcm tu smpai pkul 4.30am, we [me n ridz] were in the labour room.. waiting patiently for this lil' precious keluar.. alhamdulilah, no epidural only GAS(ENTONOX)taken to relieve my labour pain.. [sakit tetap sakit u'olls; bersalin maa].. but seriously, kali ni mcm rasa putus asa nak bersalin normal sbb x daya nak push.. alhamdulilah, lepas 3 kali [dgn midwife nye support, gynae, ridz kat sebelah lg] berjaya jugak keluar bby ni.. LEGAAAAAAAA

well, i'm not emotionally depressed due to the above story, i juz feel i can't cope with all the 'things' after delivery nih.. as ridz is not around, doing the DPA thingy [nasib bleh calling2, kurang la sket stress tu], aisya yg sedang membesar dgn sgt lasaknye - sesaat tak diam, smpai semua org penat layan die, dgn pantang lagi.. nasibla mama & ayah ada at shah alam jugak, kalau tak, mau terjebak dgn POST NATAL DEPRESSION! huhu

tp jujurnya, i really2 need my husband rite now.. kesian kat parents sbb kena tlg uruskan kami anak beranak.. diorang pun bukan larat sgt..

pantang kali ni, x brapa manja mcm masa lahirkan AISYA - masa tu semua benda ade je org tlg buat, amik itu, amik ini, etc,etc...

urmm nnt la smbung entry ni, nak BF sofea.. daaa!!!