2.15 a.m.

not asleep yet, thinking of wife sayang, cheeky aisya, and lovely sofea.

11 days into the course i think i'm on the verge of insanity, 28 weeks to go, i hope my will is strong.

my day starts at 6.00 in the morning and ends around 2.30 in the morning, this is my life. but i know rynn is struggling and toughing it through daily, during this confinement period, i can only imagine what its like. here i just need to make sure i survive through each day, while wifey has to think of aisya and sofea, and i know sometimes u ignore your own needs sayang.

i feel guilty, everyday, each time i think of you and the girls.

i couldn't hope for anyone as understanding as you are, nor will i ever find someone who loves me as much.

i just want you to know that you are my beacon of hope, the light at the end of the tunnel for me, without you i'm lost.