a while ago

life was carefree a while back, attending lectures and hanging out and churning assignments, that's all in retrospect. just a a glimpse back, and i see a shoe junkie and gadget addict who was all too willing to detached from any responsibilities.

i think i've said that i wanted to buy the most expensive shoes i can afford with the first paycheck, and that i'll remain a devoted tech-cult, that i'll be technocrat or gadget-sexual as husni described. i've kept to none.

i still fall for shoes when i come across ones that catch my fancy, i still need to hold them and smell the leather, but the urge to buy has left me. i used to be so into tech stuff, reading and experimenting with them, but the only thing i have now besides my aging compaq is a new vodafone hsdpa wireless modem. though i still sometimes dream of my dell that was stolen from me.

changed are my wants and needs. i look forward to her smile when i get back from work, conversations over the phones with her thrills me, waking up in the morning to an angelic smile leaves me warm inside. these days, i look forward coming back to a growing belly, i am happy.

those were good days indeeds, but these are definitely better.

wet dreams

Wife sayang said while i was sleeping last night i held a loud monologue which woke her up. She said i had a one-man conversation with what apparently sounded like a doctor, discussing about her pregnancy! Muahaha, i didn't get the full story from sayang yet because both of us were rushing to work this morning, so if you're reading this dear can you reconstruct my weird dream last night because i have no idea what i said in my dream!

For the uninformed, i have a tendency to talk in my sleep, and on rare occasion i practice a bit of sleep walking ")

getting a house

Been busy lately, dah kahwin katakan. well, we've decided to move on to the next obvious stage of marriage - Our Own House. So from section 8 we'll be shifting our headquarters :P to Bandar Nusa Rhu which is located in Puncak Perdana (section U10).

Hohoho, for those who are planning to get a house, i think you'll need the help of experienced parents, relatives, colleagues or friends because it can be a daunting process. Dear wife & i don't know the first thing about buying a house, thank god rynn's dad is well experienced. So we didn't have to numb our minds figuring out lingos like MOT, MRTA, MLTA, BLRs, ZECs, NZECs, valuer, inilar itular, banyak lar ceritanya. Anyway, someone's housing loan got rejected, so we have luckily (Alhamdulillah) managed to get a house that is already completed with a CF, and we can probably move in once the bank approves and releases our loan which would be in 3-4 months(InsyaAllah), blablabla.

Here's a map of our house, i'll try to get a picture of the design, the developer is kinda still in the 19th century, no website lar. hehe will write again soon! The red arrow points to our house, got this image from google map.

food for thoughts

it's almost 9, need to get to work soon but i'm thinking about food at the moment, though i just had a quick bite at the mamak just now. why food then? it's because i didn't get to eat breakfast with dear wife today, she needed to go to work at 7.15, so breakfast without my wife is not breakfast at all.

food holds the key to your hubby's tummy and heart they say, true kot! Well, three months into the marriage, dear wife has been cooking up some very2 delicious vege-dishes for me. That's her forte at the moment. She did try cooking up some black pepper beef the other day, it was mouth watering lor (signals to dear wife).

as we are still staying in with our parents, it's rather difficult for rynn to experiment in the kitchen yet. The kitchen is her mom's domain and you don't just take over someone's territory over nite.

To work!

sometimes....

sometimes things don't go so right, and i am not talking about big quarrels or arguments, it's the little ones you have every now and then. The ones that crop up when you least expect it, over issues like how you drive, the way you sort your clothes, everything and anything can be an issue if it is dealt wrongly.

i think it always starts with me, i say the wrong things at the wrong times, and the words i choose and the intonation i carry seemed to have a tad of sarcasm. Words are not merely words, they carry more than that and i hurt my Sayang a lot because what i say are sometimes hurtful. i don't mean them, i mean all those remarks that i made i dunno why i ever said them, maybe i just talk to much sometimes. maybe i'm insensitive, maybe i'm inconsiderate, there are many excuses that i can i give, but they would never solve anything.

For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness

i'm sorry :(

here we go

Today would be exactly 3 months and 4 days since our marriage vows were solemnized. Alhamdulillah, semuanya berjalan lancar babe (dengan izinNya), and now i can be officially called a suami orang, rynn's to be exact.

Looking back at that day, couldn't really say everything was so smooth sailing. This was mainly due me getting sick 3 days before hari nikah sehinggalah hari bersanding. But kalau fikir lama sikit nak gelak pun ada. Just imagine ye i went to 3 different doctors on 3 separate days, getting 3 different diagnostics, with the last doctor saying it looked like some viral fever. Cuak giler babe, nak kahwin but plenty of symptoms pointing to dengue, ape kes? Relatives pula said it's just a typical thing to go through, demam pengantin kata depa. But anyway, that's passed i managed through everything though i was sick the whole time. I guess cinta kuat punya pasal, i found some inner strength chee wahh to carry on. FYI: From the bloodcount test i took later, i was indeed having viral fever.

I think my old gang bangers - naza, diza, ajib and sabri (my great moral support team, cheers!) tahu bertapa cuaknya i sebelum di-ijab kabulkan. Imagine the idea of shifting to an unknown domain, mestilah takutkan? But i guess any man would feel that immense feeling of responsibility of taking care of another person walaupun kadang2 terasa diri sendiri pun tak terjaga. And babe believe me, any man will feel as though they'll be caved in by all those pressure sebelum nikah tu.

But semua tu tak penting, what matters most at this particular moment is this overwhelming feeling of contentment that i feel. Blogging in bed while looking at this ethereal look on her face while she's in her deep sleep is immensely gratifying.

I tell you more why you should be married ")



Here's a slideshow of our wedding day for now