a long hiatus

I've been caught up with so many things for the past few months that blogging was the last thing that came to mind.

The 30 week course is over and done with and I do hope I graduate without failing any papers.

In the 3 months that I've been back, time seemed to pass in a blink.

Raising 2 kids is tremendously tiring, but enjoyable at the same time.

I'm amazed at how 1 single mother (rynn), been able to cope during those endless months.

It's time for her to rest a bit, and lemme shoulder the burden.

This will do for now, I'll write again when I get some inspiration from my daily talk with Aisya on our daily ride home.

Much love, to you and only you.
xoxo

this n that

aisya @ 5 mnths

sofea @ 6 mnths

sibuk la sgt2 mama ni lately...

aisya so far dah makin nmpak ke'kakak'annya.. pandai nak tepuk adik, adik muak nak lapkan, adik poopoo tlg kasitau mama, susu adik nak tolong pegangkan, n sgt takut kalau strangers nak amik/dukung adik.. jeritnya punyalah kuat!!

major progress, bercakap.. huhu smpai mama n nenek dah lenguh mulut la nak layan die.. tanye ape saja, 90% pasti reply.. jumpe siapa aje [perempuan je] semua dipanggil "aaatiee"[aunty].. nak pujuk papa supaya kasik benda yg die nak, dia ckp "papa peeaasee [please]".. kalau buat salah, "mama oweee [sorry]"..

script wajib tiap2 kali mama balik keje " mama acha nak weeet" [sweet = gula2, biskut, chocolate]. tp sejak nak dkt raya ni, sbb mama slalu bwk balik biskut raya dr opis, aisya mintak "mama nak guku" maksudnye die nak muruku!!! hahaha gelak guling ngan nenek sbb mane la plak die dgr or sebut muruku tuh..



adik the molat2, sofea the bombom.. die dah lama menyusur 100km/h, merata rumah dah round.. blom merangkak tp position merangkak tu dah pandai buat, bila nak move je woops trus slide/nyusur balik.. mungkin sbb ke'debab'an yg melanda tu kot.. hahah

adik sgt geram ngan kakak, not sure why.. tp bila dgr suara kakak trus tak nak tido, bdn lonjak2 nak main, kakak dtg dekat nak tarik rambut.. apakah?? tp kakak sekali pun tak pernah balas kat adik.. rasanya adik ni nak main sgt2 ngan kakak ni..


oh ye dari 17/8/2010 - 20/8/2010, adik was admitted @ DEMC due to infantile asthm.. kena neb n fisio nak cairkan kahak.. tp adik x nangis, muka cook giler, agaknye die rasa lega bila dpt neb tuh.. anyhow, adik punye eczema ni dah smpai sangkut ke asthma, so bnyk benda yg mama kena extra jaga.. prevention is better than cure kata paed tu.. ok doc!! sepanjang tempoh tu, mama la yg jaga adik kat spital, nasib bilik canggih.. maklumla DEMC building baru..

tak sabar nak tunggu papa habis course, tak sangka dgn kuasa Allah dah 6 bulan mama bertahan tanpa papa disisi setiap masa, nasib ada weekends yg papa bleh balik.. chaiyokk mama!! - kasik semangat kat diri sendiri la kan...

lama betul terbabas

telah lama tempat perkongsian cerita kami ini tertinggal terbiar, mungkin kerana saya ketandusan ilham untuk mencoret liku-liku hidup sebagai papa & suami, jarak fizikalku dari yang tersayang benar2 mengosongkan jiwaku.

isteri kesayanganku pula, tabah brani lebih2 lagi dalam bulan Ramadhan ini, terlalu tinggi pergorbanannya, memikul beban, menjadi mama & papa pada masa yang sama kepada kedua puteriku, hanya antara dirinya & yang Maha Esa mengetahui dugaannya, 6 bulan tanpa suami di sisi.

5 minggu lagi sayang, berjauhan darimu selama ini membuatku lebih mengenali diri, dan menguatkan peganganku bahawa engkaulah satu2nya buatku.

nukilan ikhlas seorang suami yang merindui isterinya dalam kelas undang2, mujur ade QWERTY keyboard = )

ANAKKU ON BOARD

syukur sgt pd Allah sbb sy masih lagi bnafas, masih lagi ada kekuatan utk trus tabah besarkan anak2 tanpa suami disisi.. demi Allah, bukan senang nak handle anak2 kecik sendiri, mandikan, susukan, suapkan makan, tidorkan, hiburkan, keluar beli keperluan - susu, diapers, bwk utk imunisasi... semua sendiri, sgt2 penat smpai takde masa utk diri sendiri, mkn minum tak teratur.. nasibla parents ade nearby, kalau tak Allah je yg tau ape akan jd..

utk semua ni, sy tetap bahagia sbb sy tau Allah maha kaya, maha adil.. sentiasa doa supaya anak2 sentiasa sihat, dipelihara n dilindungiNya..

bila tgk balik entries yg lama2, kami sgt rajin update ttg progress aisya, utk adik, sgtlaa kurang.. bukan tak nak, tp masa sgt terhad, photographer [papa] pun jarang di rumah.. collection gmbar pun kurang.. kesian kat adikk.. tapi mama cuba jugak utk note benda2 penting yg adik experience..

• adik n aisya dihantar di nursery yg sama since mama mula kerja, bila bibik dah ade, aisya saja yg pi school, adik di rumah, mama jaga dgn bantuan bibik yg sgt jarang bantunye.. sempat la adik duk nursery 1 bln setengah..
  
• genap 3 bulan 10 hari, adik meniarap dgn jayanye.. skrg dah angkat buntut utk maju ke depan plak..
• mama dpt BF adik smpai 4 bulan je, sbb susu makin kurang - direct BF hanya waktu malam, yg lain semua EBM, kurang stimulation = kurang susu.. ade cuba kasik waktu mlm smpai skrg, tp adik sgt marah sbb susu lmbat keluar..
• adik mula dgn susu NAN PRO 1 nestle, tp muka n badan gatal teruk, eczema sama kakak rupanye.. so ISOMIL la jawabnye, lepas sebulan consume ISOMIL, adik susah poopoo, so mama decided to switch to MAMEX, jenama je lain tp masih soy-based.. nmpak ade perubahan, tiap2 hari poopoo tp tak bnyk mcm masa adik minum BM [breastmilk]
• adik sgt suka kakak duk dkt die, walaupun kakak tu kdang2 kasar cara mainnye, adik tetap gelak dekah2.. ntah ape yg lawak sgt, mama pun tak faham.. tgk diorang main berdua, bleh menitik air mata, kuasa Tuhan, perbualan tanpa perkataan tp dua2 bleh gelak sama2.. miracle
• aisya dulu kami tak cukur pun rambutnye, tp adik, sejak mama tgk die 'cukur bantal' [rambut gugur di blkg kepala je], mama dgn yakinnye cukur sampai botak rambut adik tu.. theeheehehee
• dlm kereta, kakak akan duk depan, adik ngan carseat kat belakang, ape2 pun kakak tetap MAAM besar..

utk papa, sentiasa doa supaya mama diberi kekuatan n kesihatan yg baik utk terus jaga baby2 geniuses ni okehh.. lebiyu papa, lebiyu kids!!

My Darling Aisya

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3 months in, 4 to go

Hello family & friends,

This is would be slightly cliché to say the least, but I've been preoccupied with work, my course I mean. In the past 3 months, I've been fully engaged and overwhelmed with a 15 - 16 hours day of training, excruciating and exhausting and I'm not exaggerating.

Everyday is a learning experience, and I've gone through a week's training at the police and fire fighter's each, up next would be to the army, march on soldier :p

The most valuable lesson thus far would be, you get to realize how important your family is, the one thing that's in front of you all these while, yet something you often take for granted, one that you ought to appreciate and cherish more, absence does make the heart grow fonder.

To my wife, you're just smashing, an inspirational women, with rock solid will, because in this difficult time, with a new baby in hand, you rough it through, even though sometimes I know you shed tears in the obstacles you face, and for these reasons I love you.

To my gurls, aisya and sofea, i love you, there's no two ways about it.

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early morning daze

Its 1.40 a.m. sleepy yet the eyes are not co-operating, haven't had time to blog and i'm having economics classes tomorrow, a definite no no for a TESL student!

what little time i have, i wanna say i miss my gurls!


p/s: mommy dearest, we need new together pics!

muaks

lagi aisya sofea

aisya ckp "adik shoffeaa!" [dlm gmbr - adik sebelum kena lepuk ngan si kakak]

tgk!! sy dah leh angkat kepala dgn stabil!! *winkwink*

kesian kat sofea sbb naik rashes bnyk sgt kat muka.. plus mama yg tak sedar diri main bantai makan keropok lekor baru2 ni, buatkan sofea jadi gatal2 jugak.. aduhai, kalau breastfeed bby ni takleh selfish sbnrnye.. sbb nnt yg sakit bukan kite sorang, bby yg tak bersalah tu pun kena gak..


review pasal smlm sket;

• mama bwk aisya ke klinik UMRA utk jab, dah siap daftar sume, tgh tunggu turn tetiba letrik padam - boleh?? agak lama dlm 15 mins gak bergelap, end up mama ajak aisya chow.. [x kena cucuk lagi.. tsk]
  
• ke mana?? hehe giant sec 13, aisya needs a hair cut! pi kedai gunting RM12.. geram sgt tgk rmbut aisya yg jarang n kembang2 tp lembut.. haha [potong depan n blakang je]
• nak upload gmbar terbaru aisya version rambut kemas takleh sbb, nak snap skali pun susah; die tak diamm..
• haaa, gmbar kat atas tu pandangan sisi aisya n the new hair cut - muka dah mcm anime (kartun jepun) kahkah mama gelak guling2 sbb x tahan tgk anak sendiri comel n cerdikk sggtt!!
  

things i miss

The alarm that loyally rings,
the soothing morning glim,
your calming breath,
reasons i wake,
things i miss.

coffee and toast scented room,
starched shirts and morning paper,
a kiss on my cheek,
reasons i work on,
things i miss.

hearty laughters and angelic voices,
leg hugers and little jesters,
pureness naiveness that naturally exudes,
reasons i stay awake,
things i miss.

the sunday car ride,
messy cabin & merry passengers,
a woman and two much younger ones,
reasons i live
things i miss.

penned in class,
missing you
xoxo

aisya sofea

aisya yg kepenatan n trlena.. [semenjak ade bouncer adik nih, die yg lebihnye..]

adik pd masa sama tido dlm cot [beralah ngan kakak]

padahal punyela tak muat, nak duk jugak kat bouncer..

since dua2 munchkin ni tidur, mama snap few pics anak2 - saje nak letak kat blog.. tunggang terbalik bila org buta IT nih buat.. *kehkeh* asalkan nmpak gmbarnye sudaaa!!!

sejak papa pi kursus ni, xde sape la yg rajin nak letak n adjust gmbar2 utk di'save'kan dlm komp.. bila mama cuba buat, haaa mcm ni la jadinye.. yg penting cuba kan?kan?