reminder to self,
please make time,
to read and blog again,
to trim and weed,
to take a break and smile,
work can wait,
theres never any end to that...
My CL's Journey to Oxford
4 years ago
Monday, December 26
Sunday, May 8
sayings
Before I was a Mom -
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was a Mom -
I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom -
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom -
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life
so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was a Mom -
I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom -
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom -
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life
so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.
Wednesday, April 20
BloG yG bERsaWAnG
lama sudah tak menulis di sini, baik diri sendiri mahupun si suami yg pandai dlm perihal tulis menulis nih..
ye btul, alasannya ialah sibuk, sibuk tahap gaban.. kesian sofea si adik gumukk, gambar dia sgt kurang di sini... nnt mama hupdate manyak2 bila ada masa ye.. bila adik n kakak dah besar, mesti syokk tengok sama2 kan?!!
sikit pasal papa;
sayangCINTAhatiMAMA..... SOFEAridzAISYA
ye btul, alasannya ialah sibuk, sibuk tahap gaban.. kesian sofea si adik gumukk, gambar dia sgt kurang di sini... nnt mama hupdate manyak2 bila ada masa ye.. bila adik n kakak dah besar, mesti syokk tengok sama2 kan?!!
sikit pasal papa;
- masa papa n anak2 lebih byk compared to mama - sbbnye kami keluar bekerja gunakan 1 kereta je, mula2 hantar mama ke opis, pastu adik ke rumah nenek lepas, aisya plak trus ikut papa smpai ofis sbb nursery kat dlm kawasan ofis (sgt bersyukur). bila petang plak, papa pick up aisya kat nursery, amik adik n seterusnye mama.. hmm dpt bayang mcmana hidup papa ditemani anak2 yg masing2 mulut cam popcorn!!
- papa da gumuk..
- papa masih hensem
- yg penting papa masih sayang mama lagi (ermmm ye ke ehh??)
- mama dah x handle inbound call lagi
- mama dah buat keje baru yg sgt best - masih lagi di bank rrriimauu yg terchenta itu
- mama dah rajin sket ke dapur, skett arr
- mama sgt2 penat lately
- mama sgt suka makan skrg - mari kita salahkan ubat
- mama lagi gumuk dari papa OHEMGEEE
- mama pun masih sayang papa lagi.... (pasti!)
- makin cantik
- makin cerdik
- sifatnya sgtlah "kakak"
- setiap kali nak bercerita pasti dia mula dgn "mama nak tau tak...", "sebenarnya..." dan terbaru skali "apa yg paling penting..."
- sgt suka tgk awan dania - huh mcm org tua
- kalau adik nangis dia ckp "alala adik, cian anak aisya nie"
- sgt gumuk, kalau pakai tshirt, perut mesti terkeluar!! hahaha
- sgtla "adik"
- suka sgt memunggah - bunga display kat rumah makin lama makin nak botak
- berjalan dah lama dah, sejak 11 bulan lagi so skrg mcm cuba nak terbang, bukan lari okeh, TERBANG!!
- ckp blom pandai - yg kami dapat dgr so far "nak num" "mamam" "kakak" "papa" nene" "jom" "nak ni"
- gigi yg jelas ada cuma 4 btg setakat ni..
- sgt pandai berlakon - nangis tipu supaya papa n mama gelabah - poraahhcitt!! mama dah tau la adikk!!!
sayangCINTAhatiMAMA..... SOFEAridzAISYA
Tuesday, February 8
a long hiatus
I've been caught up with so many things for the past few months that blogging was the last thing that came to mind.
The 30 week course is over and done with and I do hope I graduate without failing any papers.
In the 3 months that I've been back, time seemed to pass in a blink.
Raising 2 kids is tremendously tiring, but enjoyable at the same time.
I'm amazed at how 1 single mother (rynn), been able to cope during those endless months.
It's time for her to rest a bit, and lemme shoulder the burden.
This will do for now, I'll write again when I get some inspiration from my daily talk with Aisya on our daily ride home.
Much love, to you and only you.
xoxo
The 30 week course is over and done with and I do hope I graduate without failing any papers.
In the 3 months that I've been back, time seemed to pass in a blink.
Raising 2 kids is tremendously tiring, but enjoyable at the same time.
I'm amazed at how 1 single mother (rynn), been able to cope during those endless months.
It's time for her to rest a bit, and lemme shoulder the burden.
This will do for now, I'll write again when I get some inspiration from my daily talk with Aisya on our daily ride home.
Much love, to you and only you.
xoxo
Thursday, September 2
this n that
aisya @ 5 mnths
sofea @ 6 mnths
sibuk la sgt2 mama ni lately...
aisya so far dah makin nmpak ke'kakak'annya.. pandai nak tepuk adik, adik muak nak lapkan, adik poopoo tlg kasitau mama, susu adik nak tolong pegangkan, n sgt takut kalau strangers nak amik/dukung adik.. jeritnya punyalah kuat!!
major progress, bercakap.. huhu smpai mama n nenek dah lenguh mulut la nak layan die.. tanye ape saja, 90% pasti reply.. jumpe siapa aje [perempuan je] semua dipanggil "aaatiee"[aunty].. nak pujuk papa supaya kasik benda yg die nak, dia ckp "papa peeaasee [please]".. kalau buat salah, "mama oweee [sorry]"..
script wajib tiap2 kali mama balik keje " mama acha nak weeet" [sweet = gula2, biskut, chocolate]. tp sejak nak dkt raya ni, sbb mama slalu bwk balik biskut raya dr opis, aisya mintak "mama nak guku" maksudnye die nak muruku!!! hahaha gelak guling ngan nenek sbb mane la plak die dgr or sebut muruku tuh..
adik the molat2, sofea the bombom.. die dah lama menyusur 100km/h, merata rumah dah round.. blom merangkak tp position merangkak tu dah pandai buat, bila nak move je woops trus slide/nyusur balik.. mungkin sbb ke'debab'an yg melanda tu kot.. hahah
adik sgt geram ngan kakak, not sure why.. tp bila dgr suara kakak trus tak nak tido, bdn lonjak2 nak main, kakak dtg dekat nak tarik rambut.. apakah?? tp kakak sekali pun tak pernah balas kat adik.. rasanya adik ni nak main sgt2 ngan kakak ni..
oh ye dari 17/8/2010 - 20/8/2010, adik was admitted @ DEMC due to infantile asthm.. kena neb n fisio nak cairkan kahak.. tp adik x nangis, muka cook giler, agaknye die rasa lega bila dpt neb tuh.. anyhow, adik punye eczema ni dah smpai sangkut ke asthma, so bnyk benda yg mama kena extra jaga.. prevention is better than cure kata paed tu.. ok doc!! sepanjang tempoh tu, mama la yg jaga adik kat spital, nasib bilik canggih.. maklumla DEMC building baru..
tak sabar nak tunggu papa habis course, tak sangka dgn kuasa Allah dah 6 bulan mama bertahan tanpa papa disisi setiap masa, nasib ada weekends yg papa bleh balik.. chaiyokk mama!! - kasik semangat kat diri sendiri la kan...
Tuesday, August 17
lama betul terbabas
telah lama tempat perkongsian cerita kami ini tertinggal terbiar, mungkin kerana saya ketandusan ilham untuk mencoret liku-liku hidup sebagai papa & suami, jarak fizikalku dari yang tersayang benar2 mengosongkan jiwaku.
isteri kesayanganku pula, tabah brani lebih2 lagi dalam bulan Ramadhan ini, terlalu tinggi pergorbanannya, memikul beban, menjadi mama & papa pada masa yang sama kepada kedua puteriku, hanya antara dirinya & yang Maha Esa mengetahui dugaannya, 6 bulan tanpa suami di sisi.
5 minggu lagi sayang, berjauhan darimu selama ini membuatku lebih mengenali diri, dan menguatkan peganganku bahawa engkaulah satu2nya buatku.
nukilan ikhlas seorang suami yang merindui isterinya dalam kelas undang2, mujur ade QWERTY keyboard = )
isteri kesayanganku pula, tabah brani lebih2 lagi dalam bulan Ramadhan ini, terlalu tinggi pergorbanannya, memikul beban, menjadi mama & papa pada masa yang sama kepada kedua puteriku, hanya antara dirinya & yang Maha Esa mengetahui dugaannya, 6 bulan tanpa suami di sisi.
5 minggu lagi sayang, berjauhan darimu selama ini membuatku lebih mengenali diri, dan menguatkan peganganku bahawa engkaulah satu2nya buatku.
nukilan ikhlas seorang suami yang merindui isterinya dalam kelas undang2, mujur ade QWERTY keyboard = )
Saturday, July 3
ANAKKU ON BOARD
syukur sgt pd Allah sbb sy masih lagi bnafas, masih lagi ada kekuatan utk trus tabah besarkan anak2 tanpa suami disisi.. demi Allah, bukan senang nak handle anak2 kecik sendiri, mandikan, susukan, suapkan makan, tidorkan, hiburkan, keluar beli keperluan - susu, diapers, bwk utk imunisasi... semua sendiri, sgt2 penat smpai takde masa utk diri sendiri, mkn minum tak teratur.. nasibla parents ade nearby, kalau tak Allah je yg tau ape akan jd..
utk semua ni, sy tetap bahagia sbb sy tau Allah maha kaya, maha adil.. sentiasa doa supaya anak2 sentiasa sihat, dipelihara n dilindungiNya..
bila tgk balik entries yg lama2, kami sgt rajin update ttg progress aisya, utk adik, sgtlaa kurang.. bukan tak nak, tp masa sgt terhad, photographer [papa] pun jarang di rumah.. collection gmbar pun kurang.. kesian kat adikk.. tapi mama cuba jugak utk note benda2 penting yg adik experience..
utk semua ni, sy tetap bahagia sbb sy tau Allah maha kaya, maha adil.. sentiasa doa supaya anak2 sentiasa sihat, dipelihara n dilindungiNya..
bila tgk balik entries yg lama2, kami sgt rajin update ttg progress aisya, utk adik, sgtlaa kurang.. bukan tak nak, tp masa sgt terhad, photographer [papa] pun jarang di rumah.. collection gmbar pun kurang.. kesian kat adikk.. tapi mama cuba jugak utk note benda2 penting yg adik experience..
- adik n aisya dihantar di nursery yg sama since mama mula kerja, bila bibik dah ade, aisya saja yg pi school, adik di rumah, mama jaga dgn bantuan bibik yg sgt jarang bantunye.. sempat la adik duk nursery 1 bln setengah..
- genap 3 bulan 10 hari, adik meniarap dgn jayanye.. skrg dah angkat buntut utk maju ke depan plak..
- mama dpt BF adik smpai 4 bulan je, sbb susu makin kurang - direct BF hanya waktu malam, yg lain semua EBM, kurang stimulation = kurang susu.. ade cuba kasik waktu mlm smpai skrg, tp adik sgt marah sbb susu lmbat keluar..
- adik mula dgn susu NAN PRO 1 nestle, tp muka n badan gatal teruk, eczema sama kakak rupanye.. so ISOMIL la jawabnye, lepas sebulan consume ISOMIL, adik susah poopoo, so mama decided to switch to MAMEX, jenama je lain tp masih soy-based.. nmpak ade perubahan, tiap2 hari poopoo tp tak bnyk mcm masa adik minum BM [breastmilk]
- adik sgt suka kakak duk dkt die, walaupun kakak tu kdang2 kasar cara mainnye, adik tetap gelak dekah2.. ntah ape yg lawak sgt, mama pun tak faham.. tgk diorang main berdua, bleh menitik air mata, kuasa Tuhan, perbualan tanpa perkataan tp dua2 bleh gelak sama2.. miracle
- aisya dulu kami tak cukur pun rambutnye, tp adik, sejak mama tgk die 'cukur bantal' [rambut gugur di blkg kepala je], mama dgn yakinnye cukur sampai botak rambut adik tu.. theeheehehee
- dlm kereta, kakak akan duk depan, adik ngan carseat kat belakang, ape2 pun kakak tetap MAAM besar..
Friday, June 18
Wednesday, May 26
3 months in, 4 to go
Hello family & friends,
This is would be slightly cliché to say the least, but I've been preoccupied with work, my course I mean. In the past 3 months, I've been fully engaged and overwhelmed with a 15 - 16 hours day of training, excruciating and exhausting and I'm not exaggerating.
Everyday is a learning experience, and I've gone through a week's training at the police and fire fighter's each, up next would be to the army, march on soldier :p
The most valuable lesson thus far would be, you get to realize how important your family is, the one thing that's in front of you all these while, yet something you often take for granted, one that you ought to appreciate and cherish more, absence does make the heart grow fonder.
To my wife, you're just smashing, an inspirational women, with rock solid will, because in this difficult time, with a new baby in hand, you rough it through, even though sometimes I know you shed tears in the obstacles you face, and for these reasons I love you.
To my gurls, aisya and sofea, i love you, there's no two ways about it.
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This is would be slightly cliché to say the least, but I've been preoccupied with work, my course I mean. In the past 3 months, I've been fully engaged and overwhelmed with a 15 - 16 hours day of training, excruciating and exhausting and I'm not exaggerating.
Everyday is a learning experience, and I've gone through a week's training at the police and fire fighter's each, up next would be to the army, march on soldier :p
The most valuable lesson thus far would be, you get to realize how important your family is, the one thing that's in front of you all these while, yet something you often take for granted, one that you ought to appreciate and cherish more, absence does make the heart grow fonder.
To my wife, you're just smashing, an inspirational women, with rock solid will, because in this difficult time, with a new baby in hand, you rough it through, even though sometimes I know you shed tears in the obstacles you face, and for these reasons I love you.
To my gurls, aisya and sofea, i love you, there's no two ways about it.
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